Wouldn’t you know, it’s been about a year since my last update where I committed to committing this this space. It’s a cycle that keeps repeating itself. I recently found myself laid out and forced to rest for a couple of weeks. If anyone knows me, they know that rest is not something I do well.

I’m not making any promises this time around, well except for possibly the promise to myself to write. My promise is to just write, whether its here or in a journal, or in my Bible or on the walls. (Ok, maybe not the walls) Just write. It’s my story, and I’m no longer concerned with writing to reach. I just want to write to heal, and that is for myself. The entire point is to give myself some grace. Something I’ve greatly struggled with over the year. I over commit, over think, over criticize and fail…over and over and over again.

I came across this image just recently and it hit home so hard. This is me. Always coming up with ideas, making decisions (often big ones) that I truly believe God has in store for me and then the timing being completely off. I would always assume that I just misunderstood God, and it would mess with my confidence. It actually never occurred to me that I was making the right decisions, just not at the right time.

Do I pray that the right people will eventually find there way here and be encouraged? Absolutely! I also pray that I can be a little more disciplined in getting my thoughts out there.